Why now? I had my pre-op work done yesterday and it felt like it took forever. I haven't been up that much in quite a long time and I felt every minute of it. The way I am, I declined that anyone go with me, although there were several offers. When I am in really bad pain, I prefer to be alone and not see me like that. I'm sure that this is pride and God is still working on me regarding this. I am paying for it today, but I have accepted help from everywhere I can get it. Not my usual way of celebrating St. Patrick's Day. A Roman Catholic for forty years, I am not here to combat the issues with Protestants and their problems with Saints of the capital "S". Maybe next year in my genealogy blog, if God wills it.
Are you ready? Oddly enough, I'm more than ready today than ever before. In the last few weeks, God has taken me to new depths of pain, sickness, and that general feeling of helplessness. I still don't know if this surgery will be God's way of working in my healing or not, but I am going forward with it so that I can say that I truly went forward with the road laid before me. He can heal me with but His Word, or He may wish for me to continue as He did Paul (although I am NO Paul). However, I believe that this will be good for the family. The girls will have to pull together to help while I recover, and I will have to allow people to help me. Post surgery, I will look to get off at least some of my current medication after some time. I guess I am ready for whatever God has before me.
And what of this blog? I will probably be taking a few weeks off, please bear with me as I see how and when I can sit quietly, pray, and put words onto screen that make some sense again. I appreciate all your support and comments over time, either here or by email directly to me. I ask for your prayers now; not so much for me but for my family. Thank you for reading and I hope to be back soon, with more lessons on seeing those blessings in pain. A follower of the Way of the risen Messiah, Tom
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